I am at my breaking point. I am beyond frustrated at not being able to sleep and/or waking up in the morning in pain from my shoulders up. I have suffered from insomnia since I was 12 years old on and off but I am coming on to at least two years now of getting anywhere from two to five hours sleep a night.
Not being able to sleep is taking it's toll on me mentally and physically. I am positive that it is contributing to my depression, fatigue and lack of desire to work out (which in turn affects my weight loss goals and achievements).
I have made an appointment to see my GP and discuss my insomnia and I am also going to looking into my different options of and/or the need to be on hormone replacement therapy. I find it very difficult to function this way not having any control of my thoughts and feelings. This has only been an issue since my hysterectomy but mainly since the removal of my ovaries.
I do not regret having these procedures as it has improved my physical health and well being. It is nice to live life without pain and major discomfort. But I am greedy! I want my life to go back to the way it was prior to my ailments! I want to live life pain free and in control of my emotions,. Why should I settle for living life in a constant state of BLAH? I want to be able to sleep and not be constantly fatigued. I want to gain back my desire to workout and mainly I want to feel good about myself again.
I do not think that this is too much to ask for - so why am I fighting tooth and nail to have the health care system look into this and rectify the problem? Why has it come down to society having to fight for their health and mental well being?
I am a determined woman by nature - once my mind is set there is no way to make me stray from my path. I will figure this out and I will find a solution! I will be whole again.
Not being able to sleep is taking it's toll on me mentally and physically. I am positive that it is contributing to my depression, fatigue and lack of desire to work out (which in turn affects my weight loss goals and achievements).
I have made an appointment to see my GP and discuss my insomnia and I am also going to looking into my different options of and/or the need to be on hormone replacement therapy. I find it very difficult to function this way not having any control of my thoughts and feelings. This has only been an issue since my hysterectomy but mainly since the removal of my ovaries.
I do not regret having these procedures as it has improved my physical health and well being. It is nice to live life without pain and major discomfort. But I am greedy! I want my life to go back to the way it was prior to my ailments! I want to live life pain free and in control of my emotions,. Why should I settle for living life in a constant state of BLAH? I want to be able to sleep and not be constantly fatigued. I want to gain back my desire to workout and mainly I want to feel good about myself again.
I do not think that this is too much to ask for - so why am I fighting tooth and nail to have the health care system look into this and rectify the problem? Why has it come down to society having to fight for their health and mental well being?
I am a determined woman by nature - once my mind is set there is no way to make me stray from my path. I will figure this out and I will find a solution! I will be whole again.
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