Nice Trip & Being a Good Person

Well we are travelling back home to grab our dog from the in-laws to then rush home to meet my folks; then we are off to my brothers to celebrate my nieces' birthdays.

We had a blast yesterday with swimming, dinner out and chilling in the room with treats. We all stayed up extremely late to get up really early this morning. We are a bit sleep deprived and now we have to go to a family function.


Handsome and I have some reservations as my brother and his wife decided to take their girls to Disneyland ahead of schedule. The original plan was to go as a huge family unit when our first Born's were at the age of 8 but they decided not to wait. Also, last year we spent about $120.00 on my niece's birthday presents to have my daughter receive gifts from a dollar store for her birthday (which probably didn't amount to $10.00). I was hurt and the original plan was to do the same this year; but I can not succumb myself to scoop that low. However, there was a smaller budget for my daughter to go shopping for their presents this time around. 


Sometimes, I wish that I could be petty like some people but in the end I can never do it. It is just not in my persona to be that small or hurtful. Live and let live. It does make me feel good to know that I am the better person but there are times when I have had too much of all the crap and desire to make a point ... but never can.


So with a smile on our faces we will be off to the family dinner gathering and nothing will be said or done. I guess at least I am teaching my daughter important morals by my actions. 

Spontaneous Road Trip!

I am famous for spontaneous road trips. I enjoy packing up and going for a good drive. I love to drive, look at the scenery, talk and laugh (it is a great stress relief for me). 


Today, started as a typical Saturday in our world. All that had to be done was to take my daughter shopping for my nieces birthday presents (as tomorrow is the family dinner for their birthdays). Once, we got that task done; I was thinking .... what on earth will we do today?


I decided we should go somewhere where there is a hotel with a water park. So, I logged on line and did a google search. I found a great price at the Ramada Inn out in Lethbridge. Sure there isn't much overly spectacular to do in Lethbridge. But it is a nice two hour drive away and the hotel has 400,000 square foot water park, wave pool and slides. 


So the man and I decided we will take a family night mini vacation there. We will go swimming with my daughter and the hotel has a movie package! So after swimming to our hearts content we will go for dinner then partake in the movie package (which includes a movie that is in the theatres, a HUGE bowl of popcorn, licorice, chocolate bars and pop).


My daughter loves to stay out at a hotel. She likes being about to stay up late and sleep in the same room as  mommy. It will be a nice fun evening for the family!

We are all excited! On the road now, the man is driving ... going to enjoy the scenery and talk with my man while my daughter watches a movie on her portable DVD player (which comes in handy for the long road trips).

Self Motivation to Obtain my Ideal Weight

Each day I will have to visualize myself at my ideal weight, imagine how I will feel being at this weight. Remind myself of all the health benefits I will gain by achieving this goal. I will need to constantly motivate myself to obtain my goal and that with work, dedication and will power I will achieve my ideal weight.


I have pasted a picture on my treadmill and another onto my elliptical machine of myself when I was at my ideal weight. I will focus on these images as I workout. Thinking of all the positive accomplishments that I have done that day towards obtaining my goal.


I will shed these excess pounds. I will become more active. I will re-program myself to have a healthier way of eating and life style in general. I will obtain my goal weight and will feel amazing each day that I stick to a proper and healthy diet with regular daily exercise.


I have faith in myself that I will accomplish this goal and my success will reward me with a slender fit body that is healthy and operating at it's best!

Rock and A Hard Place

What I do not understand is why some people believe it is okay to take out their frustrations with life on loved ones. I know that if I have had a particularly crappy day at work or if I have a case of the blues that I become quiet (withdrawn); this way I do not say or do anything to my loved ones that I might regret or would make them feel bad.

I find it very hard to see others mistreat loved ones because they themselves are in a funk. I struggle to stay mutual when my father is being a prick (border-line verbally abusive) to my mother. I know from experience what my mother is going through and how it adds to depression and wears away your self esteem. Whenever I see my mom she looks more and more fragile and extremely worn down. She breaks down and purges everything on me (which I understand as she feels alone and has no one really to talk too). I am experiencing strong anger and hatred for the situation and towards my father for what he has been saying to my mother.

I am struggling to decide on whether I should stepping in and say something to my dad about his behaviour. I have sat back idly for a bit now (in hopes that things would improve) but it just seems to be getting worse. I know that my mom needs the support and for someone to say to my father "What the f*ck?! What is your problem?"

I find myself in a real hard position - I don't want to disrespect a parent but at the same time my loyalty is to my mother (after all she was the one that raised me and my father wasn't a major party of my developmental years when my folks were divorced).

The next time that he goes off on one of his rants when I am around - I will say something and but him in his place. Because right now he is of the opinion that he is not doing anything wrong and that my mother is just being over sensitive. Well, that sure is NOT the case and he needs to have his eyes opened.